One word to describe how you felt the moment you learned about the pregnancy?
Why did you choose adoption?
My wife and I chose adoption because we could not financially take on another child.
What and who played the biggest role in your decision to place your child for adoption?
What? Finances and having two babies ten months apart already. Who? My wife.
What did you think about adoption before you placed? And after you placed?
Before, although I was supporting my wife's decision, I wasn't going to show any negative thoughts nor grief. I guess it's the way I was raised, but I thought only horrible, selfish, and trashy people placed their child for adoption. After meeting with the adoptive parents and after I learned more about adoption I realized Gods plan. I realized it takes a true angel, someone with enough love for their child to give them a better life.
Looking back, what do you wish you had known then that you know today?
I don't think I would want to know or do anything different. This was God's plan, a beautiful story that changed many lives and I wouldn't change anything.
If you could dispel any myths about adoption or birth mothers - what would you say?
As a birth father, a myth I wish I could dispel is that a birth father can not love a child the same as a birth mother does. I can't speak for every man but in my case, I love my birth daughter just as much as her birth mother does.
When, if ever, have you felt most discouraged about your decision to place?
As a father I must stay strong and stay in good spirits for my family. Although I don't show it, I have my days where I put blame on myself and often wonder what it would be like to have our daughter, Etta, here with us. The one and only time that I broke (meaning lost it with tears and such) was the day they took Etta. All I could say to the adoptive parents was LOVE.
What's been the greatest reward or surprise of being a birth father?
My greatest reward for being a birth father is being able to see my birth daughter smile and be happy. My surprise of being a birth father is that I thought it was going to make me a depressed man and down on myself. To my surprise it has made me feel better about myself.
What's your greatest wish for birth fathers and mothers today?
My greatest wish for birth fathers and birth mothers is that they would believe in God, trust in Him, and you'll begin to know his plan.
What excites you about BraveLove?
BraveLove helps keep my wife in good spirits since open adoption is an on-going quest. I get excited to be a part of helping save the lives of those who can't speak for themselves.