Birth mom

How do I deal with the pain that comes with adoption?
What is the best part about being a birth mom? What is the hardest part?
What’s my role now? How do I navigate being my child’s birth mother but not their mom?
What should I expect my relationship with my child’s adoptive parents to look like?
What are realistic expectations to set in an open adoption?
If I choose not to see my child, does that make me a bad mother? Will people think I don’t love him? COMING SOON!
How will I know which couple is “the one”?
Do I need to establish the amount of time I want to see my child in the very beginning or can I see them more as time passes?
Where do I even begin with finding an agency? What specific things should I look for?
Will anyone really love my child?